Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Parenting is just plain hard...

This week has been a tough week for me emotionally and physically. I have just not been feeling myself lately and because of some severe pain I was having in my back I was not able to do anything except lay around on the sofa most of the weekend. Which allowed me lots and lots of time for some deep thinking. It gave me time to think about my kids and the way I parent them. Most days I feel as though I fail miserably. My goal as a parent is to raise children that are God fearing and Christ serving. I want them to grow up to know who they are in Christ, to know that they are loved and to grow up serving and loving their heavenly father. And yet some days the impossibility of that seems so much stronger than anything else. Now, now I realize it is possible and I realize we can do it but some days like the weekend it just hit me hard. Around every corner the enemy is lurching to rob our children of their love of Christ. Whether is be something on a tv show, or language from a neighbor or even something major like a Wicca witch living a couple of houses down he's there, searching and hunting for our children. MY CHILDREN, GOD'S CHILDREN! AND TO BE HONEST IT MAKES ME MAD! The innocence of our kids is taken so early anymore. Pole our youth groups and see how many of them have never done something sexual. Go ahead I dare you, I bet it would be a sad few who have not. I'm scared for our kids, for my kids. I need to be on my knees more for them, seeking Christ on their behalf! Please don't misunderstand me I do realize there are parents out there who have done an amazing job and have raised pure, God fearing kids. I wish I could have them come sit in my living room and tell me how to do it, what I'm doing wrong, what i'm doing right, and help me through this journey of parenting. I pray i'm doing whats right for them, that I'm raising them correctly for HIS kingdom. I will keep going before HIS thrown with their names, I will do it more and more everyday, I will seek His word on how I do it. I will beat the kingdom doors down with my prayers for my kids that I will be strict, that I will not succumb to the worlds vision of what a good parent is but what Christ thinks. I love you Logan, Jhocelyn and Jesse I'm doing my best on your behalf. God help me on the journey of parenting even when it's just plain hard...

2 comments:

stephanie garcia said...

Love ya, girl! Keep on, keeping on!

www.tonyalatorre.wordpress.com said...

Hi Erin, I agree parenting is hard. The hardest time of my life was when my four guys were little and swarming me. But now I see it as the time when I had the most purpose and I felt so important to them. You are walking straight, don't doubt it. Your heart is clinging to God and he's your guide. He won't steer you wrong. He promised. And I would very much enjoy meeting you too! Tonya