Tuesday, November 6, 2007

For my mother in law

This is dedicated to my mother in law, Josefina. I have been thinking about her so much. On september 30 Ramon passed his 5 yr mark of being here in the united states. My heart breaks for his family and his mother especially. As a mother I just can't imagine going 5 yrs without seeing one of my children. We never invisioned it being this long but money has never allowed us to go back for a visit. THere are days when my eyes just fill with tears when I think about how she must feel. My kids have never met her and that is sad itself. I know they would love her. She is just a bundle of fun, so much fun to be around. So Josefina I know you will more than likely never see this but this is for you. We love you and miss you more than you know. Hopefully one day soon we will see eachother on the soil's of venezuela!


Growing up in Venezuela had it's ups and downs. The downs weren't really the countrie's fault that had to do with other circumstances. But you see I love venezuela. It is a beautiful country with wonderful people. Even in the jungle is gorgeous. There is nothing like going out onto the river where the only noises to be heard is the birds and the quiet yet strong current flowing by. I love the jungle. As strange as that is for many of you to hear me say that I truly love venezuela and all it's many faults. Don't get me wrong I love the states as well but there is always going to be a piece of me that belongs in venezuela. Ramon finishing school in 5 weeks is very bittersweet for the both of us. We were supposed to be returning to venezuela but since we feel that door has been closed for our family we will be moving to panama instead. I'm excited about the idea of moving there but my heart cries out that we won't be able to go 'home' instead. It saddens us greatly when we think of the things that are happening there. It used to be a place where we could walk around and feel safe even us americans. But the reports we are getting now is that even for the national girls it's not safe for them to out alone. Please if you think of venezuela pray for it! Pray for the people who are living there and are struggling with the new laws, pray for the churches as they are trying to be wiped out, pray for the missionaries that are still there, and most importantly pray for the president! If God can change Pharoahs heart he can certainly change this one!